Mind is Like a Fluid …

There is a parallel question about language.  How is it that a word relates to or refers to a particular object?  The word is itself an object, a vocalized sound or a mark on a page.  What connects the word “bell” to the bell?  Sometimes it is said that one “points” to the other, but that is a figure of speech.  As the twentieth-century philosopher Ludwig Wittgenstein observes, the same question arises with pointing.  When you stretch out your finger, why does it direct attention to an object across the room, rather than to itself?

Follow along, and open your mind.  Mind is like a fluid in which human beings and the natural world exist.  By participating in the fluid, minds can understand.  Think of the problem of intentionality.  How is reference possible?  How can essences be grasped?  How can objects be seen?  There must be an interaction, and it is not only causal-physical.  How could it be?  Mind, understanding, is not just physical.  It is a conscious, fluid medium.

“Is it somewhat physical?”

Those categories are not helpful here, but it exerts physical force, has physical consequences.

 

Small-Town Wisdom, Moral Humility, and To Kill a Mockingbird

I finally got around to reading “To Kill a Mockingbird.” It is now a staple of the high school curriculum, but it was not in my day. I’m not sure it had been written yet. It is a terrific book that, to my surprise, centers on the ethos of a small Southern town, a place where people have known each other and each other’s families forever. In a larger city, we present one side of ourselves to the people we meet for coffee. In a small town, people see each other in the round. I was born in Turkey, Texas, in the Texas Panhandle. When I would ask my cousin what the population was, he was able to calculate it this way: Well, the McCorkles has twins, and Sally Sue ran away with a travelling salesman, so it is 994. (Today, it is half that. Such are the winds of change. When I visited it a few years ago, my dad asked, “Has it blown away yet?”)

My relatives who lived there were the best folks I have known. They were astute observers of people, events, and, above all, of character. They did not expect anybody to be perfect and they lived prudently with that fact. They knew how to make judgments without being judgmental. “He’ll work hard as long as you are looking,” was typical of this style. They were great story-tellers because small town life, when you know the people in all their lights and shadows, and take a benign view of their peculiarities and peccadillos, is full of stories.

Harper Lee’s novel is like that. It is told through the eyes of two children. When we are kids, we try to make sense of our world. As we grope at understanding, we get it half-right and half-wrong. His sister cannot remember a time when she wasn’t able to read. She is criticized by her teacher for reading “above grade level.” Her brother explains that this is a teacher newly minted by the state university. She believes in the “Dewey decimal system,” which says that, “if you want to know about cows, you don’t read about them, you milk one.”

Their father, Atticus Finch, is an attorney, respected in the community. He is perfectly embodied in Gregory Peck in the movie version. In typical small-town tolerance, he explains that nobody expects a certain family to abide by the rules. Their kids show up the first day of school and never attend after that. The school just marks them down as present. Atticus explains that, with a father who lives on home-brewed liquor and whatever game he can kill (in season or out), everybody just lets them be. In the calm wisdom of Atticus, the novel teaches moral humility. He never looks for a fight, but does not refuse one when it comes his way. In a small town, you mainly avoid and, whenever possible, defuse conflict. But,.when he is asked to defend a young black man accused of assault, he takes the case. And sticks with it, even in the face of an angry mob.

Throughout the book, there are gentle moral lessons – lessons of honesty and decency – but the only explicit teaching is that it wrong to kill a mockingbird, who is just there to sing. Perhaps we are mainly mockingbirds and should be left to sing our own song, in tune or not.

A Purified Theology Tended to Empty Out the Concept of God

My experiences with God were personal and intimate.  Philosophers drain the life out of Him.  God the Person becomes God the Abstraction—the Unmoved Mover, the One, the Absolute, infinite substance, the perfect being, the being whose essence is to exist.  The poet  William Butler Yeats describes the result:  “High on some mountain shelf/ Huddle the pitiless abstractions bald about the neck.”

The great Jewish scholar, Gershom Scholem, explains the phenomenon.

“The philosophers and theologians were concerned first and foremost with the purity of the concept of God and determined to divest it of all mythical and anthropomorphic elements.  But this determination to … reinterpret the recklessly anthropomorphic statements of the biblical text and the popular forms of religious expression in terms of a purified theology tended to empty out the concept of God ….  The price of God’s purity is the loss of his living reality.  What makes Him a living God … is precisely what makes it possible for man to see Him face to face.”

“No, animals are not cruel …”

I had been asking God about the early stages of life.

Personality develops (think of your own pets) and intelligence, problem-solving, lives with continuous purpose and plans, individual recognition of one animal by another, life-long mates. Now I have not just a playpen, but a menagerie, a zoo, of my own, a private jungle where I can be Tarzan.

There is nothing wrong in this world.

“Aren’t animals sometimes vicious, sometimes cruel?”

No, animals are not cruel—their personalities have not developed to that point.  Nothing (is) wrong.  It is delightful, a joy.  I love all the animals, and bear their suffering.

Gate 43 and the Meaning of Greatness

Some of the long flights to California go swimmingly, and some are more like Noah’s flood. Timing is crucial because Abigail has a week of medical appointments starting the next morning. We knew we were in trouble before the flight ever left Philadelphia. Our plane would be leaving late. All they could do was to put us at the top of the standby list for a connection in Dallas. Landing, we raced to the gate of the next flight our way. Not yet taken off, but doors closed. Raced to the next, and then the next, each time trying to win the sympathy of the officials at the desk. Then found a flight with hope and verified that we were still at the top of the standby list. After waiting a bit, the clouds parted and cherished boarding passes were placed in our hands. Oh, the joy of holding those little stiff paper passes! Then we waited and – hmmm – then waited some more. Ut-oh – the pilot and crew had not arrived. (Why had they not known about this sooner?) Once again, wait and hope, wait and hope. Then the news – this flight has been cancelled – and the boarding passes held tight in our hands became pitiless reminders of failed efforts. Would there be any way to get to tomorrow’s medical appointment? Go to the airline office, opposite Gate 43. Raced there. Passed along the way the most interminable line in the history of air transport. One could not actually see where it began or where it ended. It did not seem realistic for us to stand in that never-ending line. There was one more possibility. Find a tender heart who can help. I pushed Abigail in her wheel-chair to Gate 43 and explained our situation. “I have the impression that you have the means to help us,” I said. “Yes, I do,” she said with an impersonal smile. “But that is not my job.” A second earnest plea to her humanity crashed against the same smile. What is that young woman’s goal in life? I wondered. Then the irony struck me. How had the video showed onboard ended? “We hope you have a great flight – because greatness is what we’re going for!” Really?

An Odd Dream About Criticism and Self-Restraint

I had an odd dream. Some guy called me, saying that I was a terrible person in this way and that way and another way. I didn’t think I was that bad but, in the dream, I didn’t defend myself “because I didn’t want to dampen his enthusiasm.” Well, go figure!

Things that Seem Reckless to You Are Not Reckless

I do not want to rush you or make you do something that feels reckless, but I have to push you.  Things that seem reckless to you are not reckless.  They are safe.  What is reckless is wasting your time, wasting your life away.  Life is short.  You must make the most of it now.  It is now time to move on.

Start reading and studying.  Start doing some writing.  Start talking to people on a careful, gentle basis.  Find out who your friends and allies are.  Do not hold back.  Seek support.  Not everyone walks so closely with God.  Can’t you tell that I am already blessing you, already keeping My covenant with you?

I have prepared you to be a risk-taker.  I have always rewarded you for it.  Now I am asking you to take another risk.

 

 

 

 

“You need both.”

Most of my prayers were about the ups and downs of daily life and often about my still new relationship.  I often began the day by praying while still in bed.  One morning, I was asking something about Abigail.  For a second time, the answer came in a woman’s voice.  “Is that a female voice?”

Yes.

“Are You a woman?”

When I want to be.

“Why do You usually appear as a man?”

It goes over better.

“With most folks?”

Yes.

Many days later, I had an experience that felt like the feminine presence of God—like a powdery shower, like perfumed talc being sprinkled over my whole being.  When I had unusual experiences like this, I found them both heady and troubling.  “Lord, I could get lost in experiences like this.”

This is a phase because it is new.  Don’t worry, you’ll get over it.

“Lord, is there special meaning to the feminine presence?”

You need both (masculine and feminine).  What you call the masculine presence gives you strength and energy.  It is a bonding in My service.  The so-called feminine gives you grace and peace.  It is a healing between you and Me.

What We Leave Behind

What to save when an older relative passes away? And what do the items left behind tell about that person? These were questions put to me by a friend packing the memorabilia of a rather enigmatic departed one.

When my father died in Riverside, California, where I grew up, I asked my daughter, who lives in San Diego, if she would pack up his things, selectively. She generously consented to do so, and thereby saved me emotionally wrenching decisions in the immediate wake of his passing. I have many thoughts and memories of my father, who was the kind of guy you could always count on. But I doubt if I could have inferred that, or much of anything, from his artifacts alone. (Well, I could have inferred one thing: he had an eye for beautiful women. He had photos of the best looking women at the retirement home — staff, not other oldsters.)

A person I knew in DC was successful in business and in politics, and kept a careful record of all his accomplishments. He commented one day about the death of his grandfather, a prominent civic leader. All the awards and trophies, all the photos with notables, ended up in boxes on the sidewalk, waiting to be carted away.

I got interested in antiques several years ago, including small items to fill empty spots in large apartment I had just moved into. So I started going to estate sales. I found it strange, and questionable, to pilfer, as it were, the embodied memories of someone who has left them behind. One was a retired school teacher who had traveled widely in her later years. I picked up several things, including a little figure acquired in Turkey, of a famous sage who sits on a donkey, facing backwards, teaching his pupils who follow behind. Reflecting on it, I decided, no this is not ghoulish. She would be happy that things that meant something to her had found an appreciative home.

These random thoughts may not come to much. But there is something you might call “life-wisdom,” and it is acquired, in part, through ruminations wandering aimlessly.

“There is a purpose but not an end point.”

“Lord, is there an aim, like perfecting the world or uniting us all into the Godhead?”

No, not exactly.  There is a purpose but not an end-point.  The notion of an end-point derives from the model of the human will and its desires, getting what it wants.  The purpose of singing a song is not to get to the end.

There is no end-time.  The purpose of eschatology is to portray something about the meaning of the world.

Eschatology denotes religious ideas about the final purpose or culmination of history.

There are endings to particular worlds, but they are not apocalyptic, any more than an individual death is.

Well, just when a meaningful pattern was emerging, a sense of direction to life and history, it ends, as T. S. Eliot says, “not with a bang but with a whimper.”  History comes to nothing.  I found this answer distressing, and Abigail was more upset than I was.  One of the Jews’ gifts to the world is the very idea of history, not as a series of endless episodes or cycles, but as a progress, with a Beginning (the Creation) and a Grand Finale (the Coming of the Messiah).  Abigail doesn’t even like movies without happy endings.  And we weren’t talking about movies.  As we saw it, we were talking about whether life had any meaning or purpose at all.  This is a concern neither of us would let go.