An ego rush always broke my connection with God.
So I tried to keep a cold watch on this ego of mine.
When I was still in Washington, D.C., a matter came up about which I needed the assistance of an eminent intellectual with whom I had a limited acquaintance. He was completely forthcoming, and I felt flattered by his response.
“Lord, how should I take this? Is it wrong for me to feel flattered?”
No, it is not. This is joy, the joy of being yourself, which is proper to (appropriate for) human beings. I want you to be happy, to feel the fullness of your own being, its bounty. I blessed you with certain gifts. Of course, you recognize them as gifts, as benefits, as talents. That is okay. It is not the same as ego.
Ego is destructive, separatist, defiant of My will, self-satisfied and self-lustful. A proper appreciation of yourself opens your heart, binds you to Me, to those you love. Remember that I love you—I love all human beings—without reservation. Ideally, you would love yourself as I love you, as I loved Jesus. But that is not normally possible for human beings, because there are many obstacles.
“But it is possible for a few?”
For some, yes. I have blessed them with the ability to transcend those limitations. They can love themselves fully, and this permits them to love others.
One week I testified before a U.S. Senate committee. It did not go well and my ego limped out of the hearing room.
Get your ego out of it. Stand back and look (at it) at a distance.
“A ‘God’s-eye’ view?”
No, just objectively, as if it were someone else.
That helped. If it were someone else, I would know that, even on a good day, a Senate hearing is unpredictable. But there was still an ego wound.
“Lord, what can I do about that?”
Look, you are encased in a body and a personality, and it requires ego strength and self-respect. When I say, “Get the ego out,” I mean the second-order attachment to ego. The ego, like desires, is a fact, a necessary fact. Like the body, it gets bruised. You just nurture it and let it heal. Don’t deny it but don’t dwell on it either. Accept it and don’t attach it to blame. That your ego has been embarrassed is not the same as “doing something wrong.” Don’t blame yourself. That is an example of the wrong kind of attachment.
“Then I should just say, ‘I wish it had gone better,’ and leave it at that?”