I was relieved at not having to become a Christian. But I still wanted to know whether the standard Christian beliefs about Jesus were true. “Lord, is Jesus Your Son?”
I wondered about the doctrine of the Trinity, that God comprises the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit. “Lord, is Jesus God?”
I had trouble tracking these answers. “But You told me I should not become a Christian.”
Yes, you should not.
“But You just said …”
To believe that Jesus is My Son is not the same as being a Christian. Christianity is a sect, with some truths but many limitations. Study Jesus, learn from him, but do not become a Christian.
What are the alternatives, I wondered? There are Messianic Jews who accept Jesus as the Messiah and perhaps as God. “Lord, should I become a Messianic Jew?”
You should look into it.
I did look into it and, as far as I could tell, they were about the same as evangelical Christians, except they retained a strong sense of their ethnic Jewishness. Since I am not Jewish and had been told not to become a Christian, and they were both, this was not for me.