Abigail’s train had still not arrived. I paced back and forth, no longer seeing the other people in the station. What to think? What to feel? Finally, I forced a deep breath and, with irritation mitigated by resignation, asked, “Lord, what exactly do You want of me?”
I want you to describe the inner life of God, what it is like to be God.
The inner life of God? What it is like to be God? I didn’t know what this could possibly mean, but I forged on. “Lord, why is that important for us to know?”
Mankind sees God only from the outside and that leads to distortions in its view of God (as it would of anyone)—too distant, awesome, oppressive, Other. Even mystics are very one-sided. They experience oneness but that is not the same as empathizing with My subjective experiences.
Okay, I could see that, if God is too distant, it would be hard to relate to Him. But there was still a problem. “Lord, we think of God as being so infinite and ethereal that ‘subjective experience’ doesn’t even make sense.”
Exactly—that’s one of the distortions.
Although I am much more than a Person, I am a Person, a soul, like you. You—people—cannot relate properly, constructively, to Me unless you understand that. (Take) love, for example. My love comes across as impersonal, generic, oceanic wallowing, but (in fact) it is quite specific, concrete, with feeling, with response to the particulars of your being, of your life.
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2 thoughts on “What it is like to be God.”
David Summers May 23, 2013
I first experienced the “God Realization” back in the early 1970s. So, you know it has been a daily supplement to my life – like daily food and water. I want you know that I have experienced many of the same manifestations as you and in the beginning thought that any one who accepted the “voice” was crazy. Worse than that, I was convinced that I would die (blaspheming, pride, anti-Christ, etc) since by accepting my Christ identity would surely die just as he did. Well, my story is in that experience and I am still here! I would love to be a fellow so-sojourner with you. We would have much to talk about. David
Jerry L Martin May 25, 2013
David, whether to accept a voice or trust our sense of divine presence is a
life-defining decision. One dare not get it wrong. That is why the
challenge of spiritual discernment (“test the spirits, whether they be of
God”) looms so large. Thank you for sharing this spiritual journey with me.
I am happy to share yours.