The edge of infinity

That recollection rekindled my curiosity about Buber.  I started reading Maurice Friedman’s highly-praised biography of Buber on weekend trips to see Abigail, who was still teaching in New York.  Buber’s first philosophical awakening occurred during adolescence, prompted by “the fourteen-year-old’s terror before the infinity of the universe.”  Buber writes, “A necessity I could not understand swept over me:  I had to try again and again to imagine the edge of space, or its edgelessness, time with a beginning and an end or a time without beginning or end, and both were equally impossible, equally hopeless … Under an irresistible compulsion I reeled from one to the other, at times so closely threatened with the danger of madness that I seriously thought of avoiding it by suicide.”

I stopped reading for a moment and, as the train rumbled on, I pondered the “edge of infinity.”  I was taken over by a powerful image that was both visual and visceral.  I felt and saw space at its outer edges, rushing, expanding outward, unfurling itself with vast force and at almost instantaneous speed, without stop, neither a completed infinity nor merely finite.  The vision had a tremendous feeling of life-force, of Being unfurled, bursting forth at a reckless speed.

2 thoughts on “The edge of infinity

  1. Johan Herrenberg Reply

    Powerful, Jerry. I know the feeling. It also reminds me of my favourite composer, Havergal Brian. When he had the vision of what turned out ot be his most colossal creation, the ‘Gothic’ Symphony (1919-1927), the intensity was such that he wanted to compress it all into 10 seconds. The work, as it is, lasts almost 2 hours to do the vision justice…

    1. Jerry L Martin Reply

      Sometimes it is a whisper, or something quieter than a whisper; sometimes an explosion. Music has the subtlety and power to express such moments. The story of Havergal Brian is fascinating, Johan. Yes, the unreachable ideal would have been ten seconds! About the time it took for the universe to coming into being.

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