We should go back to the Beginning.
Enter into Me, and experience the Beginning as I experienced it. Record what I say as I re-experience that moment.
Enter into Me? I was not sure how to do that. I tried to still myself and yield to whatever experience I was about to be given.
I am in the midst of Nothingness …
“In the midst of Nothingness?” My logical alarms went off. “Lord, how can I make sense of this?”
Don’t worry now about making sense of it. Just listen.
I tried again to still myself and yield.
I am in the midst of Nothing.
I don’t know who or what I am—I am like a baby in a womb. I hear nothing, see nothing—because there is nothing. I feel alone, very alone, except that I don’t yet know what alone means. I feel growing strength, and Myself being drawn toward the light, just a glimmer at the “edge.” I am in a kind of “pain,” like stretching aching muscles.
Suddenly, it is as if I punch my arms and legs through the sides of a bag I’m in.
It is like an explosion. In a split second, fragments are zooming out in all directions. I am at a throbbing, pulsing center. I am not sure what’s happening. It is like a tightly coiled spring being suddenly released and springing out into a vast space instantaneously.
I scramble to take control, to provide order.
I tried to picture all this in terms of the Big Bang theory of the origin of the universe. In the first trillionth of a trillionth of a second, the new universe expanded faster, much faster than the speed of light. “Within a fraction of a second,” writes physicist Michio Kaku, “the universe expanded by an unimaginable factor of (10 to the 50th power).” It became 10,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000, 000,000,000,000,000,000 times bigger than it had been less than a second before.
“Lord, were there already laws of nature or did You have to establish those regularities?”
At this point, I know nothing about laws of nature. All is chaos.
Slowly I reach out to extend Myself over the whole, to infuse it. It becomes calmer, but still full of flux and dynamism and outward expansion.
I relapse, as if tired. I have done all I can do at that stage.
Listen to this on God: An Autobiography, The Podcast– the dramatic adaptation and continuing discussion of the book God: An Autobiography, As Told To A Philosopher by Jerry L. Martin.
He was a lifelong agnostic, but one day he had an occasion to pray. To his vast surprise, God answered- in words. Being a philosopher, he had a lot of questions, and God had a lot to tell him.