Judaism, Christianity, Jews, Jesus—all this upset me, so, for a time, I concentrated on day to day matters. One morning I started to ask some trivial question and was interrupted.
Did I tell you to ask a question? Just listen. You stopped asking about Me because some of the answers disturbed you. They shook your faith.
That was true. When answers upset me, I would start thinking that, surely, this was not the voice of God. “Lord, why is faith like that? Why is Your interaction with us so tenuous and subject to doubt?”
First, it is not. During most times, people have not had trouble believing. Believing in Me or in some gods was—is—the most natural thing in the world.
Second, my “invisibility” has to do with the kind of Being I am. It’s like asking why we can’t see neutrinos. Nobody can see your “mind.” You believe in “other minds” with no greater “evidence.”
God was alluding to the topic of my doctoral dissertation. One of the great philosophical puzzles concerns skepticism with regard to knowledge of other minds. The problem arises from the fact that we do not have direct access to other people’s thoughts and feelings. We only observe their outer behavior. In fact, we do not have any proof that others really have inner thoughts and feelings at all. Yet it is reasonable to believe they do. Is God any more elusive than minds? Well, He certainly seems so.
Although the voice was always palpably real and authoritative, I continued to experience resistance. My agnostic worldview really did not have room for these encounters. I was always walking a tightrope with unbelief just one misstep away. I had decided to follow the voice, but this decision would be tested.